No, I haven't completely lost it...I know Mother's Day isn't until Sunday, but Mother's Day without your Momma just doesn't hold the same meaning. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE spending the day with my foursome...I just miss being "a daughter" on Mother's Day. Like many, I have SO many "shouldas, couldas, wouldas"...but I never dreamed those sands of time would run out so soon....
This year, I decided to make myself a little something. My mother was cremated, and although I respected her decision, I don't think she could have ever realized how hard that was for those left behind. Almost 8 years later, and I still haven't found a place that's worthy for her ashes...
PMC sterling pendant with angelite (how appropriate) & Czech flower beads.
The back...a pinch of my Momma's ashes are encased between the front and back,
then stamped with a butterfly (symbolizes change)
According to my children "it's a little creepy", and my dear sweet Mr. looked at me like I had 3 heads when I told him what was inside! It probably isn't exactly conventional (of course there's the argument that I've never been conventional), and I'm ok with that...but it's comforting to finally have something tangible (my own little secret), and because carrying around an urn would have gotten me a one way ticket to the mad house!
I'll still miss her like crazy on Sunday, and my way to deal with the situation is to simply "not deal with it"...hence my post 2 days early...
If Roses grow in Heaven
Lord, please pick a bunch for me.
Place them in my Mother's arms
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her that I love her and miss her,
and when she turns to smile,
place a kiss upon her cheek
and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
that will never go away.
God saw you getting tired
and a cure was not to be
so he put his arms around you
and whispered,
"Come to Me"
With tearful eyes we watched you
and saw you pass away
and although we love you dearly
we could not make you stay.
A Golden heart stopped beating
hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best
You can only have one mother
Patient kind and true;
No other friend in all the world,
Will be the same to you.
When other friends forsake you,
To mother you will return,
For all her loving kindness,
She asks nothing in return.
As I look upon her picture,
Sweet memories I recall,
Of a face so full of sunshine,
And a smile for one and all.
Sweet Jesus, take this message,
To my dear mother up above;
Tell her how I miss her,
And give her all my love.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MOMMA!!